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Thursday, September 16, 2004
I hate the way I'm feeling right now. It just doesn't feel right to be feeling this way. =( Whatever it is, I hope we resolve this soon. I do remember your words clearly.... To expect the best and prepare for the worse. After hearing your side of the story, I just feel selfish to be feeling this way all along. I'm not perfect--Nobody is. I guess I never really thought what would I think if I were in your shoes.... and I'm sorry. Every relationship, LDR or not,n needs understanding, love, loyalty and trust. I haven't been suspicious over you all along--you know I let you lead your own life. I don't control because I trust you. And I know you know your limits and you abide to them. After hearing what you had to say for the past few days, I know I'm not always beside you physically but I'm always here to listen. You may whine and groan all you want, I don't mind. I never 'count' bout the bad things or keep them inside my heart just so I can blast you off. I learn to forget all about it cause dwelling on the past to control the future is definitely the worse a person could do. I never ever dream that I'll become a pessimistic, and I won't ; simply because I don't think there's a point doing so. Building up trust takes time. It doens't just come because you want it to or rather, a blink of an eye. It may take up days, weeks, months or even years to build up a solid trust. But I do believe that if you've got a will, there's definitely a way to do so. Its simply up to you---whether or not to trust once again. There won't be any force, just upon your wishes. Whatever it is, I'll promise to accept it rationally, with no hard feelings. I've learnt---Our future lies in our hands, not in the hands of others. Its us who play the part of controlling it. Its not the task of others to do so... And I've chosen- Not to let my feelings take over my actions, especially in a time like this. A VERY crucial time. Besides, its not the end of the world if something bad happens, its just something to wake u up realising your mistakes ; as dad said, its ok for us to make mistakes when we're young, not when we're old. Basically coz its a process of learning, and continue living. =) Being positive alwiz works.. ;) Cheers! |
*~Someone who luvs her family~* *~her friends,~* *~N that special someone in her life~* *~Someone that's crazy n spontaneous~* *~Someone that's alwiz happy-go-lucky~* *~Someone who's very talkative~* *~Someone who takes things for granted~* *~Someone who loves shopping~* *~Someone who luvs red+black!~* *~Someone who strives 4 excellence~* *~Someone that hates pessimists~* *~betrayers,liars, backstabbers~* That "someone" who juz happens to be me! 
*. . . Frustrated . . . * Coz I can't tell if its real *. . . Sad . . .* Coz I need you day n night * . . . Aggrivated . . . * Coz you can't seem to understand * . . . In Love . . . * Despite you being so far. * . . . -= Baby, I love you =- . . . .* * mwaksss!* [ -= Anyone can catch your eyes, =- ] [ -= But its someone special, =- ] [ -= That'll catch your heart. =- ] ~ When I feel what I feel, ~ ~ Sometimes its hard to tell you so, ~ ~ You may not be in the mood to learn, ~ ~ What you think you know, ~ ~ You want to keep yourself from me, ~ ~ When I don't have the strenght, ~ ~ I'm just a mirror to what I see, ~ ~ But at your best you are loved, ~ ~ You're a positive motivating force in my life, ~ ~ Should you ever need to wonder why, ~ ~ This time i promise I'll let you know ~ 
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